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Thursday, November 24th, 2011
12:40 am - Really?!
Wow. Long time no write! It's been way too long. Let's see, what did I write last..

..oohh woooowww! I was right! Life is uglier under Obumble! Speaking of life it's a whole new world for me!

In August of 2009, I had a baby girl named Amira Leigh. In December of 2010, I had my second baby girl named Rhoswen Louise. My tubes were tied so no more babies for me! I never thought of myself as being maternal or having motherly instincts or even wanting to be a mother, yet here I am. I don't wish any more but I'm loving my girls. They're absolutely wonderful.

I'm finishing up my first semester of college - I know right? I'm attending BRCC (Baton Rouge Community College). I don't know if I'm going for Neonatal Nurse Practitioner or veterinarian. Or writer; my English instructor is like frothing at the mouth trying to get me to go for my MFA (Masters of Fine Arts). I might do that as well as do something with one of my original ideas. I dunno.

Gosh, I can't believe how much has happened since I last posted. Life has just taken off and transformed into something completely new. Sadly, I find a lot of my older posts to be so emo. I thought I was being sincere - and I was, and THAT I believe is what hurts! lol

Oh well, I want to write more but I'm trying to bake a pumpkin pie from scratch for Thanksgiving '11 tomorrow. It's not going well ... but I digress.

Have fun. Be well. ...and may the force be with you

current mood: impressed

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Wednesday, November 5th, 2008
8:03 am - Change?
Yesterday, I voted for the first time. I wonder if it shall be my last. Sen. Barack Obama somehow managed to get into office - surpassing Sen. John McCain. I find this odd due to the charts and numbers. I would have placed money on finding McCain in the victory circle.

It is not to be so.

No, now America is to suffer under the hidden-agenda, the tyranny of a black-muslim President. Yes, I have heard he is Protestant and from Hawaii. If this is so, I'm the Toothfairy and I hail from Wonderland.

I fear this is the downfall of, not only America, but the world as we know it. I am not afraid to admit that I think that Obama could indeed be the Antichrist. You're right, perhaps I am wrong. But go do your research, your unbiased research, and see for yourself. I fear the trumpets are sounding faster than humanity realizes.

Here's something else to chew on: How is it still "America; Land of the Free, Home of the Brave" .. when children go to their parents, in fear, and ask what is going to happen to them due to a president getting into office? This is not the America I grew up with, not the one I learned about. This is something ugly, and though you all may stop reading this now and label it closed minded, purist Christian hardcore fodder .. Doesn't matter to me. It's only going to get uglier, and we are all to blame.

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Thursday, September 25th, 2008
6:40 pm - Free.
Travelling again! Currently in West Virginia. Will be heading back to North Carolina tomorrow or the next day. This bumps the state list up to thirteen states (WV, NC, VA, and OH). Should be heading home soon, though, to get my poor car worked on and to see about a new job.

Yeah, Wal-Mart and I didn't work out. *glare* Baherds are hellish to work for! They "let me go" because I'm on an extended sick leave. Oh well, I found a better job in The Advocate. If I can get it I'll be stylin' and profilin'!

But anyways. . .

Am still caught in an internal torment. The rift continues to let out precious life-blood, but I am growing fond of the loss. An imperfect slave, growing to love it's master's cruelty. Oh, if only I could paint the picture of my beloved torment. The horror it would cause, the arousal.

One day, one day.

current mood: moody

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Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
12:46 am - Update.
Ok. I no longer work at the Rave, I have a car ('97 Mazda Protege LX), the possibility of moving to Mississippi with Aunt Donna has come up, and I'm an alchy (Smirnoff, my love).

Yes, such an interesting life.

I'm STILL looking into Wal-Mart, but I've also looked into Goodwill, since we'll be getting one here really soon. Don't know if I'll get either but I need to. I have a car to support, so I need to.


Have you ever had a moment where you realize you really want something, but it would be a bad thing if you have it? Though the more you think about it, the more your heart longs?

Or how about you love something with a passion not seen since eras bygone, but the thing shows you as much attention as a cat? "Feed me and I love you. / F*** off. / Food? Love. / GO AWAY! Mine!"

I don't know what to do. I have opened a rift in myself and my reserves are trickling out, stolen by another. This theft goes unnoticed, it seems. I would love to patch it, but I abhor the action. Indecision knaws at my bones, my flesh, my very soul. Yet I am trapped her: Medusa's mirror. The White Witch's touch. The breath of death.

The dark cloud of depression steals my thoughts and attention. I am it's slave, now until my Prince Charming - sans Charming - appears and slays the demon(s) within me.

current mood: creative

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Sunday, April 27th, 2008
1:16 pm - Idea!
GAS FOR $1.30?!


I hear we are going to hit close to $ 4.00 a gallon by next summer and it might go higher!! Want gasoline prices to come down? We need to take some intelligent, united action. The oil companies just laughed at us when we tried to unite to not buy gas for a day because they knew we wouldn't continue to 'hurt' ourselves by continuing it any longer.
Phillip Hollsworth offered this good idea, and this idea make much more sense than the 'don't buy gas on a certain day' campaign that was going around last April or May!
It's worth your consideration.

The only way we are going to see the price of gas come down is if we hit someone in the pocketbook by not purchasing their gas! And, WE CAN DO IT WITHOUT HURTING OURSELVES.
How? Since we all rely on our cars, we can't just stop buying gas.
But we CAN have an impact on gas prices if we all act together to force a price war.
Here's the idea: For the rest of this year, DON'T purchase ANY gasoline from the two biggest companies (which now are one), EXXON and MOBIL.
If they are not selling any gas, they will be inclined to reduce their prices. If they reduce their prices, the other companies will have to follow suit.
But to have an impact, we need to reach literally millions of Exxon and Mobil gas buyers. It's really simple to do! Now, don't wimp out on me at this point...keep reading and I'll explain how simple it is to reach millions of people!!

If this makes sense to you, please pass this message on. I suggest that we not buy from EXXON/MOBIL UNTIL THEY LOWER THEIR PRICES TO THE $2.00 RANGE AND KEEP THEM DOWN. THIS CAN REALLY WORK.

(Psst: If you could check out this tribute forum I would be much obliged. It's a tribute to the former DJ of the Saturday Night Dance Party on The River, 96.1. He was much beloved by all, he shall be missed.)

current mood: annoyed

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Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008
2:02 am - Aging.
I'M 20! It doesn't feel right! Went and spent the day at mom's, then went to Chili's with R. That's the first time I've been to chili's - would like to go back now that I have an idea on what they have.

Still at The Rave, but looking into Wal-Mart. That's actually what I'm doing now - waiting on the guy to call me back. Hopefully I'll soon be an overnight stocker making double what I am now. x_x

I didn't get that mountaineer, I'll hopefully have a vehicle soon though. Will need one when R. goes back to work. He's my ride - when he leaves, I'm stuck. I've yet to decide, though, if I want a car or a truck. Decisions, decisions.

Ooh, game! Later.

current mood: horny

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Thursday, March 6th, 2008
6:31 pm - Forward!
Wow. The last entry has me basically just starting at the Rave. I'm being trained now as a supervisor. Hell, not only that, but I've gotten my driver's license and am looking for insurance for an '01 Mercury Mountaineer. Life has done some serious jumping forward!

Let's see, 20th birthday is coming up next month. I have no idea what I'm going to do for it. Might go start the work on my back piece - that's what I'd like to do. We shall just wait and see. :]

Oh, Aunt Kathy sent me a copy of Catechism of the Catholic Church. I haven't started reading it yet, nor have I looked at the Catholic Bible. *shrugs* I want to, but .. meh.

Oh, food done! Fly away, little birdie! Eat, eat!

current mood: hungry

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Friday, December 7th, 2007
2:30 pm - Work.
Ok, went for training Wednesday and last night. Made $48 dollars between the two days. I'm supposed to go back Monday and Wednesday and do the last two days of training. Tuesday, though, I'm going with the staff for a game of laser tag! Yep! I was like, 'damnn .. this was the perfect time to get hired on!' XD

I also found out I can get in for free, and bring my family. So that's going to be my Christmas gifts this year: getting them in for free. lol I know everyone will enjoy that! Will probably take everybody to see The Golden Compass. Probably.

Oh, good grief, last night after work I drove for like an hour. That was crazy - but I do feel as though I have improved. If I really have or have not, that's one thing. But with this new confidence I won't hate practicing so much anymore. Especially since I know this has to be done. Two days of almost being late for work? Yes indeed. That ain't gonna fly. v.v

Oh well, gone to find food. I'm stahvin'.

current mood: hopeful

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Tuesday, December 4th, 2007
9:34 pm - Revisiting.
Yep, I know I've already done this quiz before, but I wanted to do it again to see how different my answer was.

IQ Test Score

5 points up from 117. Go meee!

current mood: cold

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6:43 pm - Forward.
Damn, I haven't updated in a while. I'm home now .. well, back in Louisiana. Been so for several weeks now (at least five, if not more). A lot of stuff has taken place as well! For starters, been house hopping between Mom's, Aunt Lisa's, and Lynda's. Staying a couple of nights at Rob's but .. yeah. Won't continue as it was before, unfortunately. Perhaps if I had kept my mouth shut .. ha, yeah. Right. I was screwed from the start, if that was supposed to happen. XD

Went and took my GED tests - and passed! Just got the diploma last week. Mom wants to get me a class ring, but we haven't sent off for it yet. I can't wait to see how it will look. Yeah, I am proud. This opens the door for better jobs as well as college. Oh, college! I have decided on what I'm going to major in. Veterinarian for Exotics (ferrets, chinchillas, rats, etc). Mom pointed out that this line of work also includes zoo animals, which means I may work with elephants after all! XD

Oh, I also got a job at The Rave (Motion Pictures 16). I start tomorrow - or more specifically, I go for the four hour orientation tomorrow. On one hand I can't wait to start, but on the other I don't want to. Of course, the money will be nice. $6.00 an hour isn't anything to sneeze at, especially when you have no professional work experience. :]

Things are moving forward, after all this time I thought they wouldn't. Damn, go me!

current mood: determined

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Monday, October 22nd, 2007
2:21 am - Well!
Erm. Okay. I didn't go home. I missed my flight. I'm sure that made everyone happy. It pissed me off, to be honest. That was over $200 dollars wasted on me. :(

Good news is I'm Vegas - oh yeah, LAS VEGAS. Been here since Wednesday or Thursday? 'Course I'll be leaving in approx. four hours but hey .. I won't regret it. The wind and the cold is enough to drive you crazy! Plus, the only things to do here really are drink and gamble. Sure, the architecture on these buildings are amazing. And there are the shows playing (Spamalot and Phantom of the Opera), but those are only good if you have the money and time to see them. Argh.

Oh. And the sand storm. I HATE. SANDSTORMS. When I got back to the room, I had sand everywhere! My eyes, my mouth, my ears, my clothes .. it was horrible. And then last night I was horribly tortured by having to walk forever and a day. I'm so sore now it's not even funny. And I didn't even get to see the Pyramid. Argh!!! :'( ... okay, yeah, I did get to see Ceaser's Palace. And eat at Excalibur and MGM Grand. Hm. Oh, and LIONS! Lions at MGM - those were wicked cool. Didn't get pictures of course - Mom cursed that by asking for some, darn her. *shakes fist* ..maybe another time..

From here, we drive eight god-forsaken hours to Richmond, California. I hope we get some Starbucks somewhere in those long-ass eight hours. And Food! Food sounds good. The meanie heads in #myplace are currently talking about pasta - even ramen noodles sound good right now. ><;;

Alright. I've ranted enough. Fare thee well and.. stuff.

(Oh hell - Adidas just got sick again on Neopets. The Cure is like .. a bazillion NPs. This night SUCKS!!)

current mood: hungry

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Monday, October 8th, 2007
7:12 am - Flight.
Urgh! My flight home is scheduled for next Wednesday. I know I have to go, so I'm going. Doesn't mean I have to like it, but as Rob would say, 'It is what it is.'
So here's the plan. I get home at approx. 6:30pm (CST) on Wednesday. Thursday morning I get up and spend the day at GED class to refresh. Sometime on Friday I have a doctor's appointment (or should have one). Saturday and Sunday are empty, though they'll probably be spent doing something with the trailer at Dad's. Probably.
Monday and Tuesday are my test dates (cross your fingers, folks). After that? I'm really not sure. I'm sure it will all fill up since I'm back, but at the moment, the force is cloudy. [;

Well, there is one good thing about going home. Humidity, Community Coffee, and real food! - Maybe this won't be too bad after all. XD

current mood: hopeful

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Friday, September 28th, 2007
2:15 am - California.
Well! I have been to Los Angeles, San Diego, and now San Francisco. (Not to mention the little places in between. For the Python fans: I passed the exit for GLENDALE!!) I got pictures from each place, and will get more since I'm headed back for Los Angeles soon.

I think my favorite place so far has been Balboa park (which is full of museums and stuff <3), 'round San Diego Downtown. I fell in love with it - seriously, the thought of moving closer passed my mind several times. I wonder how I would do, living in Cali. . .

Unfortunately, this trip will be coming to an end soon. The GED test dates are coming quicker than I want them. I don't want to go back to Louisiana. I'm loving it here - but reality is a bitch and she's enjoying torturing me.

So, *sigh*, once I get back it's prepare for the tests, then take them. In the mean time I can job hunt. I've also got to look at dad's new trailer. It's a two bedroom and he's told everyone, including myself, that if it's needed the other room is mine. So I'm definitely going to look at it.

Ah well, coffee and food calls. I shall return - and I promise to try and keep this thing updated better. I feel as though I haven't slowed down since I got here. *lol*

Oh, and, PS: Check Lordi out - you won't be disappointed, I swear!

current mood: geeky

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Monday, September 10th, 2007
4:56 am - Stress.
Stress has taken hold of my life. Ever since the argument with NF, I've been irritable and it's like the least little bit sets my heart to beating harder than it should. I hate how that woman makes me react. Gah, if only I could wish something bad on her ... grrrr!

Nanny is in the hospital, she was throwing up and her left arm started hurting. NF took her up there - stupid, evil, witch-bitch. Nanny better watch her back - NF is vile and cunning. Evil.

Bah, took some pointless quizzes to try and take my mind off everything. It helped for a bit.
Click the LJ Cut below to see the results.

Follow the misleading lj-cut. . .Collapse )

current mood: anxious

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Saturday, September 8th, 2007
11:47 pm - Poetry.
The Wishing Well

"Hatred wells within me,
at the sight of you
Evil things come to mind,
that I'd love to do.
My mind comes up with tortures,
that I'd love to try.
Oh, how I long for that day,
that day in which you die.
I made a pact with myself,
one that won't be shattered:
Your death will be by my hand,
Do it? Yes, I'd be flattered.
For you see, you've awoken something,
Primal and unchained.
It's biting at the bit,
to bring about your pain.
I won't even try to control it,
I'll feed it with my passion.
Death will come for you,
in his timely fashion.
So farewell, Old Crone.
I wish you pain in Hell."
With one last kiss, I toss the coin,
Down the Wishing Well.

(By Silveria, 9/8/07)

current mood: frustrated

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2:37 am - Wonder.
Well, I'm finally in California. What a day it's been! I woke up at 6:45 AM (CDT), twenty minutes ahead of schedule, and was at the Baton Rouge airport by 8:30 AM (CDT). By 10:30 I was on my way to Houston, TX. That was fun! The first plane was a Continental Express jet, which is quite small. I got the window seat, overlooking the left wing. We got to deviate around some bad weather, which was really cool. I'm no longer afraid of roller coasters. XD

After arriving in Houston, things got sticky. It took me forever to get to my next terminal, and then I found out that my plane has left me behind. Oh my gawds, you talk about having a freak out but I did. I nearly had a panic attack right there! But luckily this nice security guard dude helped me out. He told me, after checking the computers, that I had been bumped. So I was scheduled on another flight that would leave a bit later. The wait wasn't too terrible, I had time to call mom and update her on the situation. After that I boarded the plane, a nice 747 this time, I was on my way to Los Angeles. By this time it's 12:30 pm (CDT), and breakfast - a cup of coffee - had been a while ago. So I ate a small steak and cheese pizza on the plane.

The second flight seemed worse, though I think that had something to do with the fact that we kept hitting air pockets and it was longer. But that meant that I had time to listen to Korn's 'Take A Look In The Mirror' (which was also the t-shirt I wore, represe'in!) and start the Catholic Literature that I got yesterday. Luckily, after two and a half hours of flight, I reached my destination at approx. 2:30 pm (PDT). I've since had a nice Meat Lover's pizza and slept. W00t w00t. XD

Ah yes, speaking of the Catholic Literature, I went by the Immaculate Conception Catholic Church and picked up some stuff. Three little booklets for those who are thinking of converting - which, I am (which made my Aunt Debbie very happy XD). I'm wanting to look at several religions before I make any sort of decision. Catholicism combines two things that I love though, so I'm giving it slightly more care than I have other religious studies.

Ah well, I think I've written enough. I wanted to describe the landscape in awesome detail - and I didn't even mention it. Hopefully I'll remember to try and do that later. Until then: ..Run Awaaaaaaay!

current mood: chipper

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Saturday, September 1st, 2007
7:12 pm - Excitement.
Well! The test placed me in 6.3 math (sixth grade, third month) but I brought it up to 10.3 (tenth grade, third month). When I took the practice test, it said my score was 460. (Science - 540, Social Studies - 650, Reading - 800, Language Pt. 1 &2 - 620. The total was 3070, the average being 614.) I'm scheduled to take the official tests in October. It only took me three weeks to finish the math class (24 hours in total). Crazy!

Let's see, what else. OH! I'm going to California next Friday!! I cannot wait! It's killing me. I know you're not supposed to wish your life away .. but .. c'mon Friday! XD
I'll be going by plane, making a stop in Houston. That's the part I'm worried about, the layover. What if I get left behind? Or my bag is lost? Wah, I hope things go well! No, more than well!

Well, I spent a week at mom's. That was fun .. and interesting. lol Aunt Donna visited yesterday. Which so figures because there came up a toad strangler so we really couldn't do anything but sit on the porch and talk. Although after it stopped raining, Logan braved the rain and went swimming. Got some good pictures of that. :D

Hmm. Metallica. Yum.

current mood: excited

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Tuesday, August 14th, 2007
10:43 am - Edumacation.
Well, I started classes for GED. I started the placement test yesterday, and
I'm going back to finish it today (in about an hour or so). I'm worried about
my math scores, though. I know they're going to be low, .. mainly because
that part of the test pwned me. As far as reading and language are
concerned, they got pwned! ^_^

I had considered earlier just not going in, because I'm so sleepy. I drank
some coffee and that seemed to help. Hopefully when I eat it will finish
waking me up. - This getting up at 5:30 shit has got to go. Sure, I'm going
to bed at 9:00pm (or there abouts), but it's not enough. The only thing I
can say is maybe if I keep it up, basically turn it into a routine, my body
will get used to it. - I sure as hell won't, I like saying when I sleep and
when I don't. XP

Hmm, let's see, what else. Ah! Started posting on Korn Morgue again. It's
nice talking to all the old posters. Not quite sure about the new ones, but
I'm sure they think the same about me. - Paul said he could host my website
on his server! I'm wanting to give it some time to think over, though. If I
traffic picks up, going over the 2GB monthly transfer, then I'll have to pay
for however much GBs it went over. xx - We shall see how it goes. Obviously
I'll tell LJ all about it. [:

--Ahhh, I got to go eat before I leave. I dun wanna go to school! The
other kids will make fun of me!

current mood: sleepy

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Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
1:36 am - Update.
I'm still job hunting. I guess I'm going to try iHop, Taco Bell, Wendy's, or Starbucks. Wal-mart isn't looking good. *sigh*

I'm going to start night classes soon. This worries me, since I've become mentally lazy. What if I fail? Ok, alright, you can't fail on the GED but damn -- do you know how bad my scores will be? Really.

I GOT MY GUITAR! It's lovely! I've been playing like crazy - every time I get a chance. My poor fingers are going to fall off soon, I know they are. Now if I can just get it properly cleaned, and get my amplifier back, things will be good. [:

Oh, gods, the search for an ad-free/free web host has been terrible. I found a site (which you can view here) that lists free/cheap web hosts, and it actually has free hosts with no forced ads. But what's the catch?! There's always the catch, and I want to know what it is.

But as soon as I can get a host, Bottled Up Inside will be revived.

current mood: nerdy

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Wednesday, July 25th, 2007
10:11 pm - Jobs.
Bah!! Target turned me down! Five plus hours waiting for them to tell me, 'We're sorry, we can't hire you. Your screening results put you in the red category. We're not allowed to hire Reds.'
Uh, you could've told me this three hours ago! Thanks! Buttwhipes.

So let's see, Target is no longer an option. There's still the overnight stockers at Wally World and possibly Winn-Dixie. There's also Best Buy, Blockbuster, Starbucks, and an assortment of fast food places (Taco Bell, Wendy's, etc). If things get too tough, I could always look into convenience stores, too. But that's something I definitely want to hold off on.

Uh, what else. Mom said I could come by and pick up the guitar, which I might look into. R. and I went to Guitar Center so I could play, and DAMN. Two plus months of not practicing has damn near undone a year and a half's work. Needless to say, I was very unhappy. ]:

School starts in two-three weeks. Means I need to start looking into the GED classes. Whee. *hopes the sarcasm didn't hurt anybody - knows how lethal it can be*

Hmm. This food is nasty. I wonder if I should go get a donut or a Dr Pepper float. *thinks* ..choices, choices..

current mood: indifferent

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